Am I a or biual... Neither? I just don't know...?

First and foremost, I am married. I have been for about 11 yrs. For much longer than that, I have had a ual attraction to women. I pushed those feelings aside when I got married. But recently, it's all I think about. Just the thought of kissing or touching or having with a female is such a turn on to me. I know that if I get intimate with anyone other than my husband, it's cheating. Not being able to find out what I am feeling is consuming me. I do think that my husband is y, but I am rarely in the "mood". Without actually having , can I still find out if I am am I a or or maybe even "bi-curious"?